Friendship Is Too Much to Ask For

Writers: Cali, Eimi
Date Posted: 23rd January 2010

Characters: B'vin, D'cal
Description: B'vin and D'cal don't part ways well.
Location: Dolphin Cove Weyr
Date: month 7, day 17 of Turn 5

D'cal rounded the corner and stopped dead in his tracks. He hadn't meant to. It was more surprise than anything. He certainly hadn't meant to react that way to seeing the greenrider. "Good afternoon, B'vin," he mumbled, trying to think of a smooth way to cover his unnatural reaction.

"D'cal." B'vin hadn't given the blue rider more than a nod of acknowledgement in the months since they'd stopped talking. It was hard for him, even now, to look at him without feeling hurt by the rejection of his friend.

The bluerider had often hoped to somehow bridge the gap between them, but nothing so far seemed to work. He was not one to give up easily, but he was starting to feel tired of it all. If B'vin didn't want to be his friend any more, he could not force him. D'cal decided to give it one more try. "I saw you in the last Fall on Serenth. I think you're both flying very well. I just wanted to tell you that."

"What, surprised that we haven't gotten hurt again?" B'vin was somewhat surprised himself. He and Serenth seemed to attract the Thread.

Oh for Faranth's sake! Did everything he say have to be taken negatively? "I just meant it was nice to see you in the sky again. That's all."

B'vin nodded. "Serenth and I have been with the wing for months now. I'm glad you finally noticed."

"I _know_ you have. I was just trying to give you a sharding compliment, but I guess I forgot who I was talking to. No one can say anything positive about you and mean it." B'vin seemed to have a gift for twisting anything you said against himself, and it drove D'cal nuts. Why did he ever try?

"Why would you want to? Why would you care?" B'vin wasn't going to just take a compliment from D'cal, not after the bluerider had hurt him like he had.

"Because we were friends once! Because I was hoping we could be again!" But obviously B'vin didn't need him and his attention was unwanted.

The greenrider wasn't going to fold. He used to give D'cal whatever he wanted, but he wasn't going to do that anymore. "You don't want to be friends. You just want to have someone to go to when you lose a flight."

"You might have noticed that I haven't gone to you after a Flight in quite some time and I doubt I will ever do it again." He had learned better now.

"You aren't _welcome_ anymore." B'vin said bitterly. "You were my best friend, D'cal. You used my feelings for you to get what you wanted and you didn't care about how it would hurt me."

"Well maybe if you had told me there had _been_ feelings involved, things would have been different." How was D'cal to have known that B'vin had wanted more out of their relationship? He had seemed to like it when he had come to him after a Flight. "I didn't know I was using you. I thought I was invited. You told me you _liked_ it when I came to you."

D'cal was twisting his words, twisting how it had been. "You _were_ invited, I _did_ like it, but it was because we were friends, because you cared about me. Or at least, I thought you did. You know how I felt about those other riders that used me in a flight and then were ashamed of what they'd done. You were supposed to be different. You were supposed to _want_ to be with me!"

Shards but B'vin could have a selective memory when he wanted to! "I _did_ want to be with you! But we agreed we were friends first! We agreed that we could have both. Then suddenly you wanted everything! One minute you tell me you like it when I come to you, the next you kick me out for it. If I had known my coming to you would end up hurting you I would have found someone else to go to. It was never my intention to hurt you, and you _know_ that!"

"You say you wanted to be with me? Then why would you never touch me unless you needed relief after a flight? Why did I make you cringe when I wanted to touch you?" B'vin remembered those times, how he'd ignored his reactions at first, how he told himself he was wrong about D'cal.

The bluerider threw his hands up helplessly. B'vin had a very selective memory, it seemed. "You were fine with it only being during a Flight! We both agreed we were just _friends_! I asked you. I _asked_ you if it was all right, and you told me it was enough! Then suddenly it wasn't! It's not my fault that things changed and you didn't tell me until it was too sharding late!"

B'vin's fist flew forward before D'cal could even process what was coming at him. It connected, soundly. "It is _not_ my fault!" B'vin cried.

The bluerider was taken by surprise as it connected squarely with his jaw. D'cal could hear the crack and instantly taste blood as he fell back against the wall. A tooth was definitely out of place. His hand reached up to cradle the injured area. "Have you cracked your sharding shell?!" D'cal didn't wait for an answer. He would not lose a tooth just to satisfy B'vin's insecurities.

B'vin watched D'cal turn and run off, too shocked at what he'd done to move. He couldn't believe what he'd done, and yet, he couldn't really regret it either. D'cal had hurt him, and now he'd hurt D'cal.

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